yoz im back to update.. so got my pay for working ytd and today at my mum's workplace.. sianz lah.. whole day no dar's news haiz.. it makes my mind go wild.. guess im not going anywhere tml anyway.. nth is on anyway.. it's sux everything juz sucks now.. haiz fuck=/

it's fate that both of us fall in love loving each other but is this an obstacle for us? i haf NO idea.. torturing my mind i said i won't thk so much abt it.. haiz


yoz back home.. hmm few days nvr update le.. was bz working.. tues and wed at henderson sec be bookshop helper today and tml will be sorting bills SIANZ.. the collecting and counting of money is fun but sorting the invoices is boring..

thk alots ba.. yesterday not really well sianz=/ now stomach still not really ok.. oso dunno why.. hmm today go work at my mum's place.. lemmi thk of HIM, andrew=/ those times we had together damn it=/ haiz can't bothered..

going home tt time so no mood=/ i miss dar haiz.. why dun we haf time together.. are we juz too busy wif our own lives.. i haf no idea.. i juz miss you=(

sianz lah dunno wad to sae IM BORED ARGHHHHHHHH sob sigh..


weee went sentosa wif you wei, see jun, nicholas, weiping and xueli today.. was nuaing in the morning coz i was so tired lol.. den met xueli at clementi and we were the 1st to reach.. yawns ba haha.. quite sianz but oso enjoyable lorz lols.. played beach volleyball and freezbie lols forgot how to spell it=x den they went into water while mi, xueli and weiping waited lols.. in the end xueli kena pull into the water wei ping went into the water herself haha.. kor bluff wanna go to our belongings there den papa came and persuade mi to go down lol.. den i kena drag down the water by kor lols.. the water was pui salty LOL.. den eyes and nose was pain when i 1st went down.. oh yeah alot of ppl at Sentosa today.. den we nua in the water lol.. i was slping in the water zz tired and sian lah lol.. den wei ping, you wei and nicholas went to play bball i was slping away~ den 3+ we went to bathe and wanna go back harbourfront le.. wanna avoid the evening crowd of ppl going off too.. den we went to harbourfront eat yoshinoya talked abt skool times and off home..

den met bing quan didi at keat hong lrt coz he wanna gif mi present.. so shocked lah he gave mi hmm 4 things? lols.. all winnie the pooh de.. a bear, coin purse, pouch and cup WOW lah lols..so shocked thx alot to my this didi who treat mi so good sia haha although we dun really meet up or chat wif each other..

watched super funkies last episode le.. i will miss sugie's humor haha he rocks.. he sings good oso lorz.. campus superstar 20 contestants are out.. 1 of them i noe de haha.. she singing pro lah ha all the best to her=) hope she will noe how to appreciate wad my dear did for her although it maybe nth much.. since now students wear uniform oso can join this type of competition xin fu lah~ lols so good de...

lala sianz now nth to do.. maple time ba.. tml and wed gonna work.. no time to study cham>.< red eyes red face baaa tired le haha


yoz back to update.. ok wasn't as happy as i tot but still fun meeting wp they all=) was rotting at home until 3+ dar came over den until 5 den go out taking cab to suntec to meet weiping they all...

den we own time our target until 7.30 met them at BK to eat dinner together.. had great time luffing and cracking jokes wif them while dar was slping.. poor him but also kinda disappointed sigh can't be bothered dun thk so also lah shu ting.. ha.. so after tt jian xun they all came and lyk dar went off wif them while i went esplanade wif wp they all.. walk around there den we went home.. lala~ wad a xmas day tot there will be much more fun but nvm lah..

tml going sentosa to have fun~ wee haha hope i enjoy... now wad i shld do is not to thk so much.. or i will be hurting myself coz of it=/


wee back home from my senior, selina's hse.. her hse so nice lah~ lols.. had a great time there singing.. own karaoke set style~ lols.. her room lyk my dream room sia haha so cool de~~

exchanging presents was funny.. lols.. i got a potato gun.. exchanged wif my senior who got a music mug.. den changed wif ziqing for a doggy haha.. not bad.. keke.. wad i can sae was enjoy enjoy enjoyed lols.. tot i had to go home alone in cab but in the end had jj and jasmine pei=)) thx to them haha..

tml going out wif dar le!!! FINALLY~~~ omg i miss him so so so much.. hope tml dinner wif head family is on haha.. den can bring him along and intro to them keke.. nitez ppl~ hope i will be very very happy tml!~


back to update.. changed my blogskin finally last nite coz i was free from assignments and stuff lol.. so this morning went to bpp to study wif jian rong.. econs past year paper done.. kinda study lah still ok lorz lols..

den actually wanna go out wif dar after tt but reach home lazy to get my butt outta my hse liaoz.. + my aching arms after yesterday's event haha.. den dar told mi how he felt ba.. im really glad to have him=)) it's true that we dun meet often.. especially this holiday.. it's 9 days since i saw you dear.. i really miss you lots but im using another way to look at things.. last time when i miss you i will get really down but now.. i dunno how but even i dun haf you beside mi i still happy and not get sad whenever i thk of you.. dun feel too bad abt it lah.. im actually happy tt you tot of giving my surprises juz tt we stay too far from each other..

so tml will be a fun day i guess.. 24th dec going my senior's hse to countdown i thk.. haha..


back home dead beat.. abit of a nightmare lol.. bth.. argH~ woke up in the morning to go for event which is a x`mas celebration wif children.. they were restless and rowdy cannot settle down 1T.T den i kena bullied by a little girl even.. argH~ kena kick by her so pain.. zzzz but i love this little kid call Xavier i guess.. i thk he got jap mix blood he's so cute~~ next time i upload the pic in frenster whhaaa.. so im lazy to elaborate more on the event.. tml going out to study wif jR yes study lols.. finally guess i can settle all my e-learning stuff tml.. cyaz


yoz~ back to update finally haha... these few days were a bit of a torture but im alright.. finally no CRS to bother mi and make mi so stressed up.. zzz shit CRS lah so suck although i lyk those debate sessions where we sit together and discuss abt issues..

sorry that i din haf the time to update this blog of mine.. coz when got time i tried to slack off den lazy to update.. anyway i shld update from monday start.

19.12.o5
it was a great day.. hello kitty outing was really fun.. before that had fo weekend event meeting.. progressing slowly but still ok ba lol.. hmm den while waiting for another meeting to end went to pei esther eat kfc wif xueli and chin chin.. den wp they all come and we went off to orchard.. i was really VERY i really mean VERY touched by weiping's hardwork for the card she gave everyone.. i read the msg i oso wanna drop tears le haha.. so we went sakae sushi-ing had great laughters and photo taking times haha.. den 14 ppl went all had their presents=)) they enjoyed theirselves lots ya.. so after tt we went to paradiz centre they play pool and went home wif them..

2o.12.o5
went to skool to do ITAB project den at 3 we went off to bugis to take pics for the project.. didn't really get much pics in the end.. den nite time play maple lorz haha..

21.12.o5
which is today.. went to skool to do ITAB project and MOD assignment.. everyone was so stressed up coz the deadline for CRS was coming.. but all so bz haha.. but after you finish CRS you will feel wah SONG AH~ so was in main library for the whole day.. hiong lah lols.. den went to nua at the mrt station while waiting for kor to go eat dinner together.. so singing lesson... not bad~ i will continue jia you on this song! i wanna sing this song well haha.. i thk i noe how to manage the feelings in there coz i thk it's the way im feeling towards dar now LOL=x no lah.. anyway those few days was quite no mood at sumtimes coz now im the one who has no time for dar.

tt time he went for 4 days camp.. come back it was e-learning week but now im bz wif all the projects and e-learning stuff i need to do tt we can't meet up.. i can't count the days we have not meet.. i finally felt better after i told wp in the morning tt i will not think about it anymore and it did help=))


hmm back to update again=] so yesterday went skool as usual.. it was the last day of skool before term break.. dunno why so high lol.. den end skool waited for wp they all go orchard.. haha went to eat and walk walk.. lala~ not bad lorz.. den reached home at 11.45 lyk tt.. senior fetch hahas..

den today morning went to eat breakfast wif my mum den see doc den went home to bathe and prepare to go orchard again.. 2 consecutive days of orchard.. met kor at marsiling den go ps meet see jun pass her food hunt design den both of us walked to heeren to find selina.. den we walked to Wheelock Place.. lol wheelock place is nice hahas.. den we went to marina square to see xingrong's competition.. he and his sis got 3rd not bad le lah=)) so after tt julian called den we went to taka to find them.. selina, mi and kor bought the gifts for the exchanging of present at her hse haha.. den we went to fetch clement, walked to cine bk find jul they all.. we went to cafe cartel to eat!! keke my 1st time leh.. not bad keke still got ppl treat de.. thx man clement=) lols.. lyk he reads my blog lyk tt.. so after tt we went to heeren to shop for more presents and off we went home.. tiring day of walking lol.. walking here and there so tired lorz my feets lols.. but great fun and laughters wif them lah..=)

hmm online den saw dar online too=)) so long nvr really see sumthing sweet from him haha.. his personal msg was abt punggol got wireless can online, but no dear dear miss her keke.. i miss you too dar lots lots..

going orchard on monday again i guess lol.. these few days oso go there abit sianz liaoz lols.. maybe christmas day oso going there who noes lols.. maple time=x


back to update.. today was not really a good day tt's all i can sae although it was our 4th month together baaa SHUCKS=/ haiz.. so tired now.. waited for him for 3 hrs+ hang around wif him for less than an hr go home le.. sianz.. i knew it would be lyk tt le.. juz hope his throat will be better.. not in the mood to update much.. gonez..


lala.. tired but i wanna update.. hmmms so today nearly wanna pon lectures in the morning but in the end i din.. Lu Sia scold us again sigh family crisis take care PTN.. although we are not a very good PTN class ya=x

so lunch was lyk pao and chicken wing.. den during break went over to fc 5 to get my dad's stuff wif ailin.. den when i finish buying walking out and calling my dad suddenly got sum1 grab my wrist from the back.. lols SHOCKED den dar! lols i went ehs but i was on the phone so had to wait to tok to dar keke.. so surprised we got fate=DD hehe.. den ailin sae she go off and find weiting and her fren so ask dar pei mi lorz.. hmmm den in the end i pon CRS go dar's hse=x coz i tot CRS muz be nth much in the end im wrong.. zzz choose the wrong lesson so sway but still ok ba i noe wad went on for CRS kinda.. so sorry ailin, weiting and vincent.. won't pon lessons le ba.. i so sway de.. yawns..

so quite happy lorz den went back at 6+ lorz now on the phone wif jR haha so going to end the entry le~ i love you dear!~~


yawns~ sigh darling lost his phone again he really very careless can't relaly contact him like that.. im still so tired.. monday blues i guess. now in IDEA tutorial, so sianz lorz.. Jian Rong spoiled my mood for today juz now=/ he said something that hit and hurted mi.. although i do accept criticism but den sigh.. was discussing about Aretha den he compare mi and her.. he sae why Aretha is so good at dressing up but i so different=/ wear until so slack.. sob sob that's my weakness ba dun really noe how to dress up.. sigh it hurts when people sae that ba.. remember last time dar dar also got sae abt mi dressing up but after he sae nvm lah blah blah.. later still got singing lesson and i dun haf the vcd yet shucks.. how i wish i can continue writing for 2 hrs but i will go crazy lyk tt.. boring ah.. how i wish one day dar will gif mi a surprise, hen jiu mei you zhen zhen de kai xin le... zhen de hen xiang lian yi qian wo men chang zai yi qi de ri zi..

written during IDEA tutorial now in ITAB lols.. haven start lesson yet maybe will update more tonite=]

Quote of the Day:"The more simple-minded you think you are, the more complicated you are."


hey im finally home after a long day haha... so woke up at 8.30 this morning.. went to skool wif jR he poor thing lah 7 am in the morning den reach home 9+ meet mi liaoz... so go club lorz watched a bit of girls' bball match quite nice leh haha.. den went for beach volleyball competition..

overall i thk it was cool and fun lorz.. haha den im all red and dark now kena sunburnt le.. den i got new name call apple strudel=/ lols all bcoz of wilson.. but it was really a fun day.. i was in Team D consisting of max. mi. wp, joreen and bai yu.. but in the end of the day left max mi and wp haha.. we rox lah~ got 1st.. all efforts goes to our MVP of the competition MAX! lols.. he pro lah lols wp oso very good worx^^ i thk i there zuo bo 1 keke.. hand abit pain ba but still ok..

so the whole thing ended at abt 4+ den went to haf a shower and we drag off time until 5+ den go off.. we actually wanted to eat kfc in skool so walked to fc 5 but den at tt time outside fc 5 got army registration things lah den got MANY MANY army ppl.. den we walk into fc 5 see kfc close le.. den we walk to mrt lorz.. walking along the shops den alot of them juz turn and look at us.. Zzzz so typical NS guys.. lalala.. =/ so wanted to go PS wif them but i thk by the time oso abit late so i juz went to my grandma's hse for steamboat.. after eating i went window shopping wif my cousins.. haha quite fun ba.. my cousin keep complaining i today very fierce-.- lols maybe coz i too tired liaoz.. so after tt went back to grandma's hse and took cab home.. tired tired tired lol.. tml gonna rest at home le.. i miss dar so much if i could i cfm will go over his place tml but im too tired haha... cheers~ there will be pics uploaded in frenster on the beach volleyball event soon..


yoz back to update~ hahas today was a long day.. so sianz haha.. den so tired oso.. the most pro part is the last tutorial for the day MOB.. KK Cheong was giving the answers i put my head on the table, copying den i copy until close eyes and copy suddenly so tired lorz.. but din manage to slp.. so piang finish tutorial le KK Cheong sae wanna take pics lucky i din kena haha.. saw zhi cheng so asked him to wait for mi to go club together..

go there den went to find them going to start the bball match.. den dar came and pei mi for a while din really had things to tok abt.. den pei him to mrt station to meet jian xun and they go off together.. that er xin de jian xun want a kiss when dar kissed mi lols.. act cute sia...

so back to bball court sports club ppl bias! lols.. dunno lah weiling was so cute lols she keep complaining abt the referee but really true ba.. den xueli suddenly din feel well after the game so i kinda help her around pei her lorz.. anyway the bball match we lost.. but jia you! got other matches jia you jia you CSCC can do it! lols.. den the soccer match at the other side was ok ba draw.. while walking to mrt i was telling wp abt dar ba haha juz complaining ba.. den julian came in and he lyk explain and telling mi more lorz.. maybe he is rite thx jul=) you oso jia you ya? haha.. den we went to clementi to haf dinner and i went off wif kor they all 1st.. on the way home jR called for a chat haha so he kinda pei mi tok until i reached home.. so here i am at home.. gonna slp early tonite ba tml got vball dunno wanna play anot=/ lol

dar was saeing tt i everytime complain im tired den ownself dun wanna slp early.. oso bcoz waiting for him ba..=/ nvm.. tot of a chinese quote today..
ru guo wo men de ju li yue lai yue yuan, wo zhen de bu zhi dao hui fa sheng she me shi..

Quote of the Day:"Deng dao you yi tian wo bu zai xu yao ni, wo men ke neng jiu bu cun zai le.."


so tired this morning tt when i reached tutorial room i gong gong wanna slp more sia haha.. so had 2 hrs break today den got photo taking.. a very stupid photo taking session bu hao wan de lols.. i understand equilibrim of income^^ lols.. actually i quite lyk econs lols but not my forte i dun even thk i got a forte lol..

so after skool piang home in the end i was stuck out of hse coz the lifts was down and dun haf my back door key or else i will be climbing 8 floors up my hse lols.. den sit downstairs for an hr.. i juz come up my hse den the delivery for the modem and laptop was finally here den installer oso came.. the guy so weird chionging to do everything lol.. but oso efficient ba haha.. so now i got new modem but the speed still abit slow dunno why but they will fix it..

wanted to do MOB but i dunno how to do so playing maple now lols.. leeching and healing my mp while blogging.. juz finish eating dinner not long den jR called for a chat for a while lols.. im not an entertainer i need ppl to entertain stupid guy lol he sucks=/ lols! gonez~


so im back home.. everyday onli complaining im tired hahas.. so was a normal day juz tt there was a flea market in SB. bought a nice earring there quite ex lol..


so after lecture went to gg find sino den slp for a while there.. rushed for our GEMs during lesson he buwee mi! lol he smack my back so hard lol.. pain.. he asked mi to pei him was until gg in the end he got fren i run=D lol.. so went to clubhse and finished my econs tutorial.. done le no 1 was in the club so went to bball court pei kor watch match.. wei ping gave mi a bday bear so sweet of her=)) haha.. hope she can find hers soon.. took sum pics wif wp, julian and wilson haha not high enuff to take but not bad ba.. so after that wei ping and julian pei mi took mrt until woodlands den they went down coz they go cwp..

rushed off to meet dar to watch movie=DD finally i got to see him today!! watched Zarutha.. err wad can i sae abt the show.. so Jumanji juz tt it's a space adventure scenerio.. i keep saeing it was stupid in the show lols=x so yay! got dar to hug lol but juz for a while lo... i hug the chair in front of mi even lols... so empty lorz the cinema.. at the end of the movie coz dar's phone no batt den he wanna use my phone den we kinda argue over sumthing he dun understand.. if it continue i cfm scolding vulgurities liaoz=x i was so baaaa dunno angry i guess den juz tried to calm myself down by keeping quiet..

den dar wanna sorta wanna see my face i pushed his hand away=/ coz i wasn't in the right mood.. so sorta made myself cheer up den pei him wait for bus... den we chat chat again lorz.. he sae i nvr look at him when he was toking to mi.. feel so bad abt it but i got used to it when i had my exs i dun look into their eyes.. i wonder why too.. ha..

thking lots again when i was on the way home.. are we growing apart? i dunno im juz worried to lose you i guess.. sum1 told mi not to be so dependant on you maybe i shld but if this continue we may end up being strangers.. not meeting for a week is terrible enuff so worried den the feeling will go away.. but i dun wanna gif up you sae abt your couple frens' situation i really guess we are abit lyk them ba.. but at least i do hear you sing it's nice to hear you sing actually juz tt listen long will sianz de=x come on shu ting dun thk so deeply le remember it will be hurting yourself in the end..

ok time to do MOB for tml SIANS=/ lalala needa come home early tml tt's more sianz dun lyk to go home early it's so boring.. yawns~
ps. i ate bread for 3 meals today lols! nice bo..=/ today was lyk drink bread done=/

Quote of the day:"it is worth sacrifacing for you"


back to blog feeling abit not well haha.. but im emotionally fine lols.. after a little break down in the afternoon so im ok.. eyes tired can't be blogging down wad had happen today so tt's all.. juz to blog tt im alright lols.. poofs*


back home.. seriously i needa blog my tots out im getting crazy and heavy in heart..

even though we tok abt it b4 i still thk sigh.. actually i told jR juz now.. sumtimes i thk we are near when we are on the phone but today whole day down.. it seems we are so far again.. i dunno.. i oso dunno wad's happening between us.. whether i shld thk deeply or not to.. i haf no idea.. im juz totally confused wad to do next.. it's onli hoping to see you every time we wanted to meet but we can't.. i dunno why will it be lyk tt.. many many thoughts abt how to juz continuing my life even if you dun haf the time for mi.. but im thking lyk tt why are we still together.. i dun haf the meaning of giving up but if i continue lyk tt i will really cannot take it.. you sae tt i muz sae out when im unhappy or wad but wad's the point of it.. or it will be hard on mi if i continue to be sad and i will juz mentally want to gif up.. no idea when it will happen anot.. im juz so lacking of your love i guess.. where is the sweetness of our 1st time being together.. you being so happy and silly in sum way but at least i noe im being loved so happily.. now i noe you do still love mi but... distance may be the obstacle.. im wondering i can pass it anot.. i really hope to last wif you... but come to thk we are sorta from 2 different world.. you stay at the east im at the west.. in skool we are at the both ends of the skool... i seriously dunno wad i can do.. both of us trying our best ba... but to no use.. we can't even meet after skool coz of several reasons.. i can onli sae i really dunno wad i can do im obviously crazy rite now how i wish i can scream everything out..

how much anger and sadness in mi... it's making my heart so heavy at this point of time.. how i wish i can break down making myself at least feeling better but tears dun fall easily for mi..

end of rubbish.. today had IDEAs presentation that was no comments.. found out sumthing that make mi feel lyk changing my bloglink but for that 1 person wad for juz dun bother ba.. accounts tutorial and practical was cancelled for dunno wad reason and we had 3 hrs break.. went to cafe eat and study den went to fc 6.. was slping in ITAB when my sorta favourite lecturer was toking.. maybe coz i wasn't sitting at my usual place den i slack off.. access abit difficult ba.. was too tired to go figure out..

evening had my MOB CA lost 10 marks liaoz.. nvm can't be bothered.. 10% onli i guess sigh was not prepared enuff ba.. den went to watch a bball friendly match wif wp they all.. went for singing lesson.. passed my song gonna choose my own song le.. needa find vcd onli.. the 1st time when i passed my song i wanted to let him noe but he's bz nvm... went home wif kor.. den when reach cck lrt jR called for a chat until i reached home going up the lift dar called.. so lyk tt this was my day.. i trying to sound happy nowadays so let mi be i guess.. online's haha maybe fake who noes ha.. thx for reading such a long entry today

Quote of the day:"you are so near YET so far."


time to blog b4 i get bz wif sum stuffs.. haha.. hmm so it was quite a tiring day yesterday lol finish class at 5 den go sports hall outside see soccer match.. but we lost=x den pei them go bball training while waiting for JR to go home together.. after tt went to clementi go haf dinner before going home.. reach home 10 lyk tt le haha.. den did tutorial until 12.30 faster went to slp coz today needa wake up early..

so tired worx haha.. so went to Red Cross Home to do CIP did gardening wif vonne and wp~ lols ants bite pain... so did until 1+ we went off le.. go back skool debriefing den went to jR's hse wif veronica, kor and selina.. reach there oso slack lol.. watch tv play x box play mahjong.. but coz jR bz cooking so not much to do.. den we di siao him when he typing reply lol~ hmm so nice dinner wif seniors lol.. went off wif veronica coz i wanted to go home early.. so back home.. finished up my tutorial.. im getting worried abt my MOB test on monday.. lyk not enuff time to study.. yawn.. stress coming le.. dunno wanna go beach volleyball on this coming sat see how ba.. maybe i shld take a rest.. time to finish up my minutes on the 1st meeting liaoz gone.. MY TAGBOARD IS COLD=(

Quote of the day:" Absence makes the heart fonder."


yoz back to update although im tired lol.. ok lol back from washing up.. better faster update and go slp le cannot take it.. slept at 1.20 lyk tt last nite was on the phone wif him.. kinda cleared my unhappiness haha..

so dragged myself to skool.. had 2 hrs' break ate at fc 4 liaoz den went to club go there for a while seniors left for classes den i slack alone there when alvin and weiping came.. haha.. so after tt went to econs tutorial.. fell aslp while tutor was explaining.. haha..

ended at 3+ den went home wait for the stupid deliveryman to come in the end 6 liaoz oso nvr come den i call up telling them make arrangements again to come other day.. singnet so lousy lorz.. zzz... chionged to PS to watch chicken little with club ppl.. sit in the middle of kor and jian rong lol.. chicken little was funny and lame lol.. can watch ba.. quite funny keke.. so after the movie took MRT home wif jian rong, kor and yida who joined us after zhi cheng went off lol.. they so er xin practising their tongue skills LOL! my dinner tonite was 2 breads lols.. incredible and JR treated mi! lols coz i complain wanna eat but they wanna go lols..

come home bathe liaoz den piang the powerpt slides for zL.. not really good ba but at least got the idea there i guess.. i see zL online i oso sianz liaoz dun really lyk the way he does things.. Zzzz ok end of blog.. i enjoyed my day but i miss dar too haha.. it's gonna be 1 week we last met up.. he asked mi wanan go out together during break but thk will haf idea project to do ba.. so tt's all.. who is who you are talking abt?*quoted from chicken little* haha nitez guys

OH YEAH Happy birthday to my dearest SHIK MAMA! keke.. thx alot for everything sorry that i can't pass ya present today.. i make up for it kaez? i make sumthing special for you if i got the time keke..